I feel like I’ve lamented the fact that blogging is just not the same anymore many many many times.  But I have like 5 faithful readers of this blog (sweet Cara-Mia being the only one that even comments) so I feel safe being able to write whatever I want.

I like wordpress because it does allow me to make individual posts private like livejournal does.  I get weirded out by putting information on the internet because I read so many blogs (a crazy amount really, I should scale back my reader) and some people are so open about personal information.  I go back and forth between wanting to write posts regularly to update about all the things happening in my life and not wanting to write anything at all because someone will stumble on my blog and know something as silly as where I grocery shop and then I freak out.

Blogging used to be a scrapbook type thing for me.  I posted all the time and added nonsensical titles.  I put up random things daily with TL;DR posts scattered in, but now I have tumblr to post random images/videos/songs I like or twitter to publish quick two or three sentence updates/observations or instagram to publish personal pictures quickly.  So I don’t use the blog anymore except for an occasional essay.  However, I recently found out that wordpress has quick new post options for an image, video, quote, or text post, much like tumblr does, so I’m going to try start using this blog with those options, getting back to my roots.  So there may be some quote posts (like the post before this), one or two sentence updates, or a post with only a picture.  I’m going to try to not get anxious about posting more personal things so I’m not constantly vagueposting.  Okay, little blog, let’s do this!

How about a +/- list for this week… ready go!

+going to NYC this weekend and getting to see The Book of Mormon!

+it snowed late last night and people were predicting delays/snow days

-still had to go into work instead of working from home like I hoped.

-leaving my dog gives me separation anxiety… she’s my daemon, I’m convinced.

+one of our “neighbors” (we don’t really have neighbors, but this farm is in our general area) has baby goats & I love driving by and getting to see them running in the pasture.  if I worked up the guts to ask the people if I could just play with the babies for a bit, would you think that was weird?  would they?

+wedding planning is coming along swimmingly

-whenever people find out when I’m getting married, they react negatively (“ooohhhh good luck with the planning, it’s so stressful” or “you won’t be able to plan a wedding in that amount of time”) and it’s really disheartening, but it hasn’t been stressful at all and I’m good on my timeline. and why is your first reaction negative?  it’s like when you’re pregnant (or so I’ve witnessed/heard) and people love to immediately tell you their birth/child-rearing horror stories.  come on people!  let’s go with the positive!!

+feeling like I’m getting to a place where I feel comfortable opening up about more personal things.

… Ima end on a plus!

—-Rhianna, over and out.